There is nothing worse than knowing that you have failed. repeatedly.
That's how I feel now as I look down at my mutilated fingers and try to
remember when I first started my nasty little habit.
I can't.
For the life of me I couldn't tell you when or what triggered whatever you
would call this... issue. So without any idea as to how to fix myself
psychologically I have decided that the best (and perhaps only) way to combat
my own weak will power would be to shame myself into taking a good long look at
how my actions are affecting my life and appearance.
So I decided that a photo blog, even if I am the only reader, would be a
good way to motivate myself into stopping. I do not want to show any one what I
am doing but if I truly want to stop maybe this is the way.
So I guess I should explain what the problem actually is...
I compulsively pick and bite at the skin around my fingers. To the point
where the skin is dry and cracked and tough and bleeding.
Oh I can hear you now, my dear reader... you may think that this is not an issue
of any real substance but you open a new tab now and go on Google. Search 'how
to stop biting the skin around my fingers'
I used to think that this habit was just something I did and only when I
searched for more information did I realise that there must be thousands of
people all with the same problem. It even has some posh scientific name (I
forget what it is, but I will find out).
The worst thing that I discovered? No one seems to know how to stop...
So here I am, hoping that maybe this will be the cure. I will upload the first pictures tonight. I hope that this blog can be a inspiration or even just a prop for my fellow Finger Biters.
I haven't scratched
or bitten the skin around my fingers for 1 hour and this time I am determined
that I won't ever do it again.
